conflicts.

when are things ever going to be ok? things are different. way too different. you used to worry bout my health, schoolwork, etc until im ok. but now its like why are you doing this and how did you get like this. instead of things you used to say. i made a mistake. and jst because of that one mistake there isn't anything anymore. so don't blame me for not talking to you or w/e it is because its just too hard to bear, at least rite now. im trying to be as strong as possible, but iono i can for long. that day will come. and im just sitting not being able to do anything until it happens. it won't be long.
i plan to never be where i am now, lost, miserable, emotionless and numb. this is worse then before. and if you can't tell the pattern its only going to get worse. i won't put myself in this position every again.