my goodbye

it just hurts. really hurts. i couldn't even do anything. i couldn't even try. it was like sitting on the bench of your own game. you really wanna try hard to win. but you just can't. but the problem was worst. its jst like if u were blindfolded and you can't see whats happening. so how can you help? i was blinded. im so mad at myself that i had to chance to change everything. i was just this close to get what i've been dreaming of and getting it back but it was like i blew it w/o even knowing. how can i be so careless. all i can say now is goodbye. my hope is all gone. within a second.