a happily ever after & a sad ever after

everythings soo great and yet everythings so messed up. it doesn't make sense. im so happy one day and the other not . its just that one thing missing. i believe that its worth to wait and see the future. i understand things now that i didn't before and i wished ive seen it sooner. "because i want you there" is all i need to keep my day going. a week going. even a month. it shows a great deal that i haven't lost anything. let alone my age w/ not one speck of maturity in me. maybe even on grain might even make it better. but patience is what i need to gain and strive for what i want. and maybe things will go the way i see or it won't. life can't always be about what you want. il be happy or eventually happy about what might happen next. if not il learn to accept it for the sake of your happiness. after all its not just mine that i need to protect.