why am i torturing myself with words that have nothing to do with me?
why should i let it bother me at all? because it shouldn't.
yet i can't ignore the fact that it is. no matter how much energy i put to convince myself that its not true.. it doesn't change that the truth will always be there.
theres no way that i can compete with someone with such unique personality and talent.
how do i know?
she was his choice.
not me.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
07/17/10
Loved is just loved.
Knowing you have truly loved me, is already enough.
If i didn't have your love, i would only just be a normal me.If those tears that i cried for you disappeared,then how would i have felt the feeling of happiness?
If i could see you once more, i just want to tell you i have never have regretted it
let me tell you again properly goodbye.
Knowing you have truly loved me, is already enough.
If i didn't have your love, i would only just be a normal me.If those tears that i cried for you disappeared,then how would i have felt the feeling of happiness?
If i could see you once more, i just want to tell you i have never have regretted it
let me tell you again properly goodbye.
Friday, June 11, 2010
reminiscing.
even after so many years, that special person is still able to make me laugh & smile like theres no tomorrow. (:
Friday, June 4, 2010
realizing.
for now let me enjoy this limited time to watch over you. i wish for the better but i knew since the beginning it was impossible. i guess i still hoped that one day it will be in my favor. but i see that its impossible. acknowledgment confirmed. allow me to make most of this time and let me feel a little bit of the happiness. i must admit its like a perfect picture. permanent and unbreakable. wish you the best. always, me.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
05/15-05/16
yesterday was the youth olympic event.
it was alrite. we were paired in teams.
janice&sandy, me& zi
hoping we'd be in one group.. they separated us =[
but its okkk.
we had a relay race, played dodgeball, two obstacle courses: one blindfolded and the other physical activity, a water activity, and tug-a-war.
we won first on both relay races. we won one/two in dodgeball, we won second in both obstacle courses. we won first in 1/2 of the water activity. and we won 5/6 in tug-a-war.
Although we did not place, we worked well as a team and found many ways to tackle every obstacle as best we can. We had great leaders to guide us the way.
got at home around 5ish. slept at 6pm thinking tat it would be nap but instead it turned out to be a 14-hour sleep until 8am in the morning.
really sore from yesterday and napped again at 12 pm til 1pm.
wat a tiring day. sigh...
All along i had no intentions of ruining anything. My only intentions were to encourage them to continue on and to show them both sides of the story in order to be stable once again. i could careless about desire to take advantage of the situation. if i had no such desire, then how can i? Many saw differently. I've come to the point that others don't matter and what they say doesn't matter either. It bothers me wen others see the wrong idea and make a fuss about it, but i won't say anything because i may have done that before. i chose the way i chose for many reasons and they are all good reasons. If i had a choice to go back in time to change things i wouldn't. I was there wen someone needed me. As long as the end results were that they are both ok then thats the way it should be. & they ARE both ok.
it was alrite. we were paired in teams.
janice&sandy, me& zi
hoping we'd be in one group.. they separated us =[
but its okkk.
we had a relay race, played dodgeball, two obstacle courses: one blindfolded and the other physical activity, a water activity, and tug-a-war.
we won first on both relay races. we won one/two in dodgeball, we won second in both obstacle courses. we won first in 1/2 of the water activity. and we won 5/6 in tug-a-war.
Although we did not place, we worked well as a team and found many ways to tackle every obstacle as best we can. We had great leaders to guide us the way.
got at home around 5ish. slept at 6pm thinking tat it would be nap but instead it turned out to be a 14-hour sleep until 8am in the morning.
really sore from yesterday and napped again at 12 pm til 1pm.
wat a tiring day. sigh...
All along i had no intentions of ruining anything. My only intentions were to encourage them to continue on and to show them both sides of the story in order to be stable once again. i could careless about desire to take advantage of the situation. if i had no such desire, then how can i? Many saw differently. I've come to the point that others don't matter and what they say doesn't matter either. It bothers me wen others see the wrong idea and make a fuss about it, but i won't say anything because i may have done that before. i chose the way i chose for many reasons and they are all good reasons. If i had a choice to go back in time to change things i wouldn't. I was there wen someone needed me. As long as the end results were that they are both ok then thats the way it should be. & they ARE both ok.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Interesting Day (:
so fourth period was unbelievably easy to get by todaii. not because it was friday but because christian paris made it fun.. hahah how weird.
i was saying sooo many racist jokes against him since hes sooo dark.
*i was replacing a black pen with a blue pen... and christian goes on saying...
christian: you're changing the black ink with the blue ink since it needs to fit in xDDD
if you guys don't get it, its a racist joke. (: it was hilarious at the time.
this made fourth period pass by faster :D thanks paris.
after school janice and i went to ct (:
she went to the doctors with me and i am still 5'2...
it was shocking that janice could read chinese words on our way to the bank! "common sense" hehes
janice now has a legit wallet. that girl is younger than me and she freaken has everything -___-X
we went to eat at sam woo cafe. (:
haha susan better watch out on monday :D sickkkk prank. its going to be hilarious.
after we ate we headed home and we found lilo&stitch on the floor! it was calling for us! lilau (:
haha next we saw andrew tam, david navidad, and marco on broadway. wtheck sooo weird.
we ate a better restaurant than theirs (;
so random we saw "cheerleader"!
we then decided to stop by the guitar store :D i found my dream guitar :D
i am attempted to learn how to play one (: lessons in the summer! sooo ready.
then went home (: a fun day.
i was saying sooo many racist jokes against him since hes sooo dark.
*i was replacing a black pen with a blue pen... and christian goes on saying...
christian: you're changing the black ink with the blue ink since it needs to fit in xDDD
if you guys don't get it, its a racist joke. (: it was hilarious at the time.
this made fourth period pass by faster :D thanks paris.
after school janice and i went to ct (:
she went to the doctors with me and i am still 5'2...
it was shocking that janice could read chinese words on our way to the bank! "common sense" hehes
janice now has a legit wallet. that girl is younger than me and she freaken has everything -___-X
we went to eat at sam woo cafe. (:
haha susan better watch out on monday :D sickkkk prank. its going to be hilarious.
after we ate we headed home and we found lilo&stitch on the floor! it was calling for us! lilau (:
haha next we saw andrew tam, david navidad, and marco on broadway. wtheck sooo weird.
we ate a better restaurant than theirs (;
so random we saw "cheerleader"!
we then decided to stop by the guitar store :D i found my dream guitar :D
i am attempted to learn how to play one (: lessons in the summer! sooo ready.
then went home (: a fun day.
Monday, May 3, 2010
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